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Topic: A Night in the Life of Jarhead...
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 5:27pm | |
Jarhead0331Colonel  Posts : 8733 Joined: 24 MAY 2006 Location: 0, Texas Status : Offline | Well...I'm sitting here watching my wife pack her things. She'll be out of the house by Tuesday. The finality of seeing her things boxed is just as painful as I thought it would be.
Its all so surreal...still not sure how this happened or why I am here. Deep down, i still know its for the best and that she is doing me a favor, but it just doesn't feel like it right now. All those good times...all those memories...gone "like tears in the rain."
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Tonight I can write the saddest lines. Write, for example,'The night is shattered and the blue stars shiver in the distance.' The night wind revolves in the sky and sings. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too. Through nights like this one I held her in my arms I kissed her again and again under the endless sky. She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too. How could one not have loved her great still eyes. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her. To hear the immense night, still more immense without her. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture. What does it matter that my love could not keep her. The night is shattered and she is not with me. This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her. My sight searches for her as though to go to her. My heart looks for her, and she is not with me. The same night whitening the same trees. We, of that time, are no longer the same. I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her. My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing. Anothers. She will be anothers. Like my kisses before. Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes. I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her. Love is so short, forgetting is so long. Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her. Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer and these the last verses that I write for her.The great Pablo Neruda... Anyway, thank you for indulging me in this time of hurt.
"And They shall know no fear, for they are fear incarnate"
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 5:33pm | |
SmuckatelliColonel Posts : 7965 Joined: 8 JUN 2004 Location: US Status : Offline | Semper Fidelis brother, you are in my prayers.
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 6:22pm | |
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 6:43pm | |
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 7:06pm | |
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 7:16pm | |
BlakjackCenturion Posts : 763 Joined: 5 JUL 2009 Location: US, OH Status : Offline | Stay strong brother. Stay strong. Better days are ahead.
If you build an idiot-proof computer, someone will make a better idiot.
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 7:24pm | |
destraexGlobal Moderator  Posts : 6185 Joined: 8 MAY 2001 Location: AT, 3D Status : Offline | This sort of talk always makes me paranoid about my own relationship with my wife. Nothing is perfect, but everybody seems to want them to be. All the best Jar, now that its happening in a few weeks hopefully your focus will be settling again. Its kinda good that these days people are not stuck in bad marriages. It gives a second chance at life and prevents the spiral down form travelling further than it needs to.
Thoughts out to you Jar. We will of course all be here for you.
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 8:00pm | |
StaggerwingColonelPosts : 3317 Joined: 4 AUG 2007 Status : Offline | JH,
Lots of good advice in these replies. Better days will come, this too shall pass, wait till the morning comes...It's all true.
Still, I'd be remiss in saying that you won't have a few rough patches ahead when you start to let your guard down.
Something will remind you of times past and it will hurt. Yet...it's all good. If you don't hurt then you don't feel and if
you don't feel then you can't be happy those times you don't hurt. The emotional scar tissue eventually gets crowded
out by new growth as you start to make new memories and one day you come to the startling realization that a whole
year has gone by and yet you're still mostly the same guy that you were back when all was right with the world.
For now, another round of poetry:
Reluctance[/h2] By Robert Frost
Out through the fields and the woods
And over the walls I have wended;
I have climbed the hills of view
And looked at the world, and descended;
I have come by the highway home,
And lo, it is ended.
The leaves are all dead on the ground,
Save those that the oak is keeping
To ravel them one by one
And let them go scraping and creeping
Out over the crusted snow,
When others are sleeping.
And the dead leaves lie huddled and still,
No longer blown hither and thither;
The last long aster is gone;
The flowers of the witch-hazel wither;
The heart is still aching to seek,
But the feet question 'Whither?'
Ah, when to the heart of man
Was it ever less than a treason
To go with the drift of things,
To yield with a grace to reason,
And bow and accept the end
Of a love or a season?
Wit Ye further, or how...? -Voluspa (Poetic Eddas)
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 9:45pm | |
MartokColonel Posts : 4018 Joined: 4 JUN 2005 Location: US, Minnesota Status : Offline | Jarhead, I still don't know what to say....other than, of course, that we're here for you. To you as well, Bushman.
Courage and fortitude to both of you, gentlemen.
"I happen to believe that both parties deserve a good scouring with a metal brush and sent to their room without reelection" - Steelgrave
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| 14 JAN 2011 at 10:08pm | |
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| 15 JAN 2011 at 1:20am | |
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| 15 JAN 2011 at 4:41am | |
bayonetbrantColonel Posts : 7052 Joined: 18 MAR 2007 Status : Offline | stay strong guys. no one can you bring you down without your permission. don't give it to them.
I've been there, and it sucked. It sucked for 6 months, even as I knew - knew - it was a good thing. Fortunately, I had a few good friends to help me through it all, but nowhere near the online community we have here.
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| 15 JAN 2011 at 6:10am | |
Centurion40General Posts : 10892 Joined: 31 OCT 2003 Location: CA, Halifax Status : Offline | Originally Posted By MartokWhat the Klingon said. You're in my thoughts. For what it's worth, I've heard a lot of people say that the 2nd time is the charm when it comes to marriage. Mind you, I've never talked to Larry King. "I love Anne Hathaway and her penchant for nudity." -The Dawg of Metal
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| 15 JAN 2011 at 6:26am | |
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| 15 JAN 2011 at 8:04am | |
bayonetbrantColonelPosts : 7052 Joined: 18 MAR 2007 Status : Offline | my quip about my first marriage these days is that it was a "starter marriage" - much like a starter house - that gave me a lot of insight into what I am/am not willing to put up with when married. Check out GrogNews for wargaming / mil news. http://grognews.blogspot.com
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